CrysTal ' s____________

2009-03-11T11:26:00.004+08:00

Things happened, with a reason, or without. Sitting in this same empty room, I am feeling so restless, and scared. Tears have been dried out, all that left is a smile. There are so much that I still want to tell you, but we both know that you are not the one.

My heart is twisting like hell, deep breathing is the only way out. Because I really don't want to let you go. However, I have to...............

the very first time in my life, I am so scared of being alone~~~~

P.S: Cherished, therefore let go.

2008-11-16T14:59:00.003+08:00

If not getting married, why date?
If gonna get hungry, why eat?
If gonna wake up, why sleep?
If gonna pass away one day no matter what, why live?

there must be a reason.....for the things that happen~~~

ps: a brilliant weather today...life is gorgerous, as always!!

2008-11-11T17:11:00.002+08:00

yeah yeah exams' coming!! and i am really not freaking out~why??

above are a few pictures of my beetle...they were actually taken for my mum~~hehe :)

2008-10-31T19:00:00.002+08:00

Happy merry Halloween~~~
time really flies too fast..it didn't keep the promise to wait for me though. Alright I started talking rubbish right from the begining of this post...lol....

I met a lot new people recently from Subway~~nice place to work honestly..haha

I watched "Painted Skin" eventually under the influence of my buddy..lol...the music is so smoothing, this is a heart-broken love story with a little bit horrified sensation. Well that's my impression lah...

I realised that i really need to gear up....for my exam le...studying?...haiz....small case...:P :P

and then i also realised that I, no matter what, cannot forget him...it's like a living memory, it plays in my mind so often that i couldn't even control it. So what?

Go SLEEP!!!

oh Gosh, i am just soooooo tired now, cuz finished work at 11pm then just reached home!! see you soon...

like to apologize to those people asked me to relink you: Sorry Weiqing, Junyi, Sheryl and Cheehow.....I am really too lazy to go back to my template to edit them at THIS moment...but I will do it once my exams finish ok? ! hah and thanks for those of sweeties who tag my blog...thanks for keeping the tag board survive~~~wee wee~~~

take care to the people I care :D

2008-10-30T17:17:00.002+08:00

hello Waitangi!

Labour day holiday just finished and four more weeks to the final exams.. it's kind of not that scary and also stressful~~my buddy got herself a new boyfriend, that was very fast considered that many things happened in her life in the short 2 months time.

Recently Hamilton police are everywhere for don't know what reason, it's kind of interesting. I heard from a news few weeks ago saying that 2 teenagers were shot by a gun while they were wallking home at 1am along a main road. Shocking right? hah that's New Zealand~~

Auckland is even worse. You can hear news talking about someone being killed, robbed, or kidnapped nearly everyday, which is just soooo not good.

oh well...forget about that then. Got to go back continue doing my treaty essay now. Global economic depression is coming or has already come, hope everyone is fine still~~

Petrol price is just sooooooo LOW!!!! I love IT!!! hahah :D

2008-09-27T18:04:00.003+08:00

Oh well I probably watched too many dramas that my mind just can't stop dreaming. Noooooo :(

But still, I wish to believe in something that could have been really silly. That is just the one thing in the past that I want to hold on to the future, and hopefully it works.

I know that it could probably turns out to be an extremely useless effort, but I just want to believe in fate for this time, once and never again :P praying hard? hmmm maybe not.....

Like many of you, we all have a busy life, to keep ourselves occupied with all sort of stuffs. The end of year exam is coming, and then it will be the summer vocation the all the students have longed for. Friends in Singapore will be having their ultimately stressful A-level I guess. Oh dear I realised that I am so lucky to have met a bunch of talented ppl at TJ....and just here to wish them all the best for their exams even though you guys have heard this kind of wishes for millions times. hahah :D

and for myself, hmm nothing much to talk about because I am not going to write what have I been doing today, or what I am going to do tml...no daily reports in my blog...Oh one last thing to remember....to put your clock forward for an hour if you are in New Zealand, and I believe you know why..haha :D

alright then...wish you a happy day :D

2008-07-30T17:33:00.002+08:00

Kia Ora,

Hello Beetles!!

The weather is absolutely horrible here in winter! It rains and winds non-stop, and staying in the house also keeps you freezing. LOL I have got nothing more to comment on already. haha

I believe that some of you already knew that I just got myself a VW Beetles! haha it's a blue baby...she is grogeous!! well...good things do not come for free, so I got to spend the next one and half year to pay it off...heehee and I just got my driving license, therefore......come on baby, drive on! haha...it freaked me out when i drove for the very first time cuz i kept driving the car to the opposite lane! haha but it's getting better now, and hopefully I will be able to drive my parents around when they come here next year! :D

On the other hand, Degree life is not easy! There are heaps of books that r waiting for me to PATIENTLY read them through, and billions of essays to write. Oh well I am not complaining, I am just trying to motivate myself :P

Anyway, hmm I am getting a little bit speechless..wahaha

last sentence for my reader:

" Drink tea, It keeps you going." -----from "The shipping news"

2008-06-22T05:18:00.007+08:00

Kia Ora,

Hello Sunday!!

We've finally finished our clinical placements which left heaps of reports for us to complete. School's starting tomorrow, and a week later, we are in semester break again,for another 3-week time! Hooray :)

I am thinking of joining St. John ambulance as a volunteer, but they require for a DRIVING LICENSE!! oh no please....... so this decision immediately became a "to-be-considered". I met Paul on last thursday, woah he got his hair cut, that's cute man! Anyway Student Association is doing really well, and after the May conference down in Nelson, We are heading to Auckland for another NZUSA conference in early July. The only thing I pray hard for? No more backpackers' place please! hahah

Dad and Mum were back from Sweden yesterday. So I'll give them a call later of the day and chit-chating for a while. I can't wait for that..... :)

Besides, it seems that I missed Hui Von's Birthday again :( so wish her a belated happy birthday and best wishes to her life! take care buddy :)

I got my landlady to do my tea daily started from last week! that's definitely an awesome decision because it's much better that the takeaways from outside. Brilliant!

I'm rushing on the Human Development report today...hmmm hopefully I can get it done before midnight today. hehe :) Anyway good luck to whoever is reading my blog.

Cheers :)

2008-05-27T15:40:00.003+08:00

Kia Ora,

well things have been moving on pretty fast that I don't even have time to pause and take a deep breath. hah, that's my lovely life and I got to love it. Studies have been doing really well and I have shorten my course for half a year's time, BRAVO!!

In addition, Like to say that I am really sorry for what have been happening in both China and Burma. they were tragegies, so hopefully people are blessed and at least they could suffer less in some ways.

It is pretty hard to update my blog in school as the website has been block on campus, ha therefore there will be another long time before my next update comes up. Things going around at this moment made me realise that how important it is to stay "healthy", to stay "easily satisfied". what are people busying chasing after everyday?? money? good appearance? pleasure? well of course you got to have something to run after otherwise life would be really boring. But since when so many of them start become pointless of chasing.....well...hard to say.

Anyway I wish everyone have a good day,trouble less and be happy of what you've got.
easy to say, but hard to do :)

G'day :)

2008-02-20T03:56:00.002+08:00

all right, i am back to blog.

well life in new zealand is pretty good,not saying it's relaxing but it can be said as fullfilling. I got plenty of time to learn what I am really interested in, and the education no longer make me feel like escaping as what i felt last year. I have to admit that last year was an total disaster...haha but fortunately the pasted one year has make me realised what i really want to be in future...as in a realistic future career, that could possibly help me realise all my dreams..but not what others want me to become. I am a lucky one....

being new in new zealand doesn't nean I am lonely...people are so helpful here, and it is even more fortunate to being able to make new friends that have same vision as you here....and within such short period of time, some of my views changed. Farmers' lives and farming culture could be very unique...and different living enviroments shape people with different characters....the most important thing is that they are proud of what they are, and not worrying changing themselves because of others' opinions, things like their appearances, body sizes, food they eat daily, etc. people are proud of everything they do, even trading drugs. that's cool...as it makes a obvious contrast to most of asians, we care a lot about how other people think of us, how much people talk abt the advantages of being slim, how fashion's going on and we follow. It seems that we are chasing after too many things that don't really relevant to us, and the sense of self-satisfiction is just keep going down and down....what a poor thing it is. sigh >.<

needless to say, the nature mother has given new zealand her most beautiful part of her body...the views are undescribable, therefore i won't say much abt that. I got to get a driving license fast as it 's really inconvenient nt having a car here....you can hardly move out of your house...

and the phone bill charges are rather high, but internet access seems like endlessly free...you can survive happily without a laptop or any eletric devices, just like me. haha

and school life is just as lovely as hamilton itself...peaceful, progressive, also not losing its sense of maturity and responsibility that tertiary students should carry.

things that spoil the leasant pictures still exit, like some of kiwis here actually not that polite...you can still come across people with no manner...hahaha but they don't bother me apparently...because I am too IN to the beautiful things around me..haha

just update till here first as my 1st lesson is starting really soon....before leaving, i would like to say "sorry" to some of you guys in singapore ...as i really can't make myself available to meet you guys for the last time....as things were going on rather complicated previously...so i would really appreciate if you could pardon me.....

did you hear me, CELESTA?? haaha :)
i will always carry those beautiful memories with me..and i will be back to singapore one day...because

i left my tennis rackets behind still....hehe :P

take care lor guys. I love you :))

2008-01-23T17:14:00.000+08:00

My departure date has been changed, therefore guess i have no time to meet you guys already.
ha take care lor!

farewell :))

2008-01-18T15:34:00.000+08:00

hey guys, I am leaving singapore really soon...for those i have not get to meet you, i am sorry for that, and best wishes to you.

have a great 2008 :D

2007-11-04T18:58:00.000+08:00

A level project is drawing to the end finally...

hwwppp.....dunno what to say exactly

just feel kind of weird,

haha

want to laugh out loud

towards the mid of Nov,

things will slowly come with a clearer picture

and crucial decisions going to be made

i say is all up to God's will,

but daddy said we should be objective on this matter

oh well, i have no comments

since there is a difference.....

SMILE

I LOVE :D

i want to say THANK YOU

to Kean yen!

haha

and THANK YOU

to TJ111.

to Matin,

haha THANK YOU too,

for you know what i mean :D

and

Let's wait and see

what's going to happen next :))

2007-11-04T18:43:00.000+08:00

oh well

thank you

this is what i really want to say.

I've lost a lot

though i gained some.

making a right decision

is just so hard sometimes

however

force myself to stand still,

As a girl

i shall really be strong,

and

smile

I am truly grateful to my parents

for their generious forgivenness,

and their solid love for me,

that's what really melt the ice.

there is seldom communication between parents and their children,

therefore i feel fortunate for having such really understanding parents,

or

rather

friends in my life.

Thank you

Dad and Mum,

for everything :))

2007-10-25T16:04:00.000+08:00

life pauses,

i stop everything,

stop smiling

stop dreaming

stop promising

stop apologizing

stop crying

and just simply

being numb.

my life is a secret

with no one's entering.

im pushing myself to suicidal

that's the reason i want to disappear

don't ask me why

because i won't explain

no matter who you are.

You could hate me to the core

you could slap me on my face

you could kick me, and do whatever you want

just stop asking me why.

i

zipped my mouth.

you want to use the ugliest words to describe me,

to your like.

all the way, im enduring

therefore i could continue enduring.

Two more weeks to go,

by next year you will know the reason for now.

lastly

i want to thank you

for the forgivingness.

i say what i mean;

i mean what i say.

2007-10-24T00:38:00.000+08:00

it has been long

since my last blog

i am drifting away from you,

also

drifting towards something else.

my life, you shouldn't be bothered

sad memory,

just let it being erased

by

the forever-moving time.

i pray

you don't remember me

and

you won't remember me in future.

there are many many things

that i want to tell you

keep telling myself to stop dreaming

and yet,

seeing you still make me tortured

it's like living in the hell

that keep walking while not knowing what is going to happen for the next seconds.

maybe being with you,

is always that tiring.

so

i hide away my smile

in front of you

although i don't even have one.

and whatever i say

will be just like flowing water,

it makes me feel cold.

Therefore,

i will keep quiet

till the day i disappear,

as you wish

from your life.

To put a full stop on something,

you got to be 100% determined

regardless of anything you going to sacrifice.

you play boy?!

well

it's your life anyway.

---------------------------------------------

since i know you will never see this post

here is something for you

sleep more whenever you have time,

love your body;

go to washroom whenever you need,

as you really need to pamper yourself more;

although life sometimes does not allow you

to be carefree,

give yourself a free-thought day,

your smile will light up ppl's day;

cut down on smoking if you want to,

as it spoils your image sometimes;

live for yourself,

care not about others,

and cherish life.

there is a reason for me to say

you are good,

so believe what i said

as what i always believe.

:D

2007-10-12T11:12:00.000+08:00

trust myself

trust the lord

things will get better

got back my promo results just now

everything numb me all over

hoping

you will light up my day

tonight, maybe

as you always do.

PW is making things worse

first time in my life

i really cannot breath

and yet

still afraid of asking for help.

2007-10-09T22:21:00.000+08:00

it would be quite unrealistic

if i wanna be with you

right now

because

it sounds childish;

therefore i will wait

year by year.

God will be there

i wish you

a happy day :)

2007-10-09T22:17:00.000+08:00

something continue goes wrong

and something right is coming

uncontrollable

i am here

waiting

to be

???

i realise

my life still got a long long way to go

so

do not be hurry

ok?

2007-10-09T19:03:00.000+08:00

ice edge starts to melt

drop by drop

i am truly grateful

to all you guys

little things you did

little words you said

make my day

i thank you

many thanks to 24/07

thanks,

for waiting for me;

thanks,

for forgiving me;

thanks,

for advising me;

thanks,

for so many things

i choose to believe

because your eyes make me to do so.

i treasure......

and

to be life-long cherished :D

2007-10-09T01:36:00.000+08:00

DayDreaming

its not for building up hopes

but collapsing the future

i'v always remebered

that day

that noon

that minutes & seconds

and

that words you said.

no matter what

no matter how long the time has passed

the impact remains

and im always afraid.

being a good girl

&

be strong.

Am i a nerd?

maybe.

or

maybe not.

up to you

i just want to be

myself,

the

used-to-be-me.

2007-10-08T03:12:00.000+08:00

do not forgive me

do not care for me

bear with me for just a little more

and then

leave me alone.

i can't be saved

so dun ever try it;

save your time

for other

more worthwhile stuffs

i will feel better

afterall, your life is not mine,

because

i don't feel grateful to all those;

because

i am a cold-blooded one.

i have no wish to flag up my history

just walk away from me

dun ever look back.

so pathetic.

idiotically pathetic.

smiles??

i dislike it.

why am i smiling

when my heart is aching like hell??

i just simply

pray

for a peace.

you have no idea

on how hard my life is right now.

i say it is hard,

i mean it,

but you will never experience it

slow?!

yes we are,

freaking slow.

and so unfortunate

clash with my pathetic period of life.

is it a disaster?

or gifted by God?

2007-10-07T02:54:00.000+08:00

less smile for me

less care for you

i am a cold-blooded animal

staring at the air

in a cold-blooded version;

sick of doing all these

praying for a disappearance

and

coming back

with an amazing outlook;

more and more people getting to know it

but less and less people understand it

so

let it hibernating

for just a century

we

wait ,

and

see.

i say it,

i mean it.

i hate explaining "i mean it" even when i apologizing.

if you got a chance to read here, just wish you could understand.

_________________________________

i told you that you are good

because i believe that you are not bad

you eyes tell

_________________________________

and what's my weaknesses??

1. im scared of being shouted at,

it freaks me out

and makes me tear

2. you think im joking

when i seriously mean something

it brings up my hatred

once the gap is formed in between,

its hard to close it again

you say being harsh is good?

sorry not for me.

if i got my reason

if you don't understand

too bad then,

cold-war begins

until the next ice age.

sorry

but i'v already told you.

you think you are mature??

you think you are being considerate??

oh please, if you are,

i won't be here nagging at you already.

when i saw the msg,

it shaked my heart,

and bring me a surge of

jumping down from the train.

because

you

do NOT understand.

you will NEVER understand.

P.S i refuse to listen, asking for help, answering your questions
i will do my part.

so leave me alone.
for goodness sick.

am i happy?
no im not,
im just trying to be......

the used-to-be-me :(

if you read this, then

i wanna

thank you :)

2007-10-04T14:10:00.000+08:00

fake

freaking fake

fishy faking

i hate * being fake

it makes me feel disappointed & hopeless

the reality is still breaking

friends??!!

troubled!!??

In the world of 16:9, there are always thousands of possibilities per second.

2007-10-02T13:40:00.000+08:00

feeling demoralised

and yet, still afraid of asking for help

such a idiot.

life goes on

here it comes.

____________________________________

if everyone else knows it except for me

then don't let me know it forever

will be better, maybe.

seeing you frowning is just as bad as 911

so, never mind

just let it go

you won't care, will you?

____________________________________

2007-09-30T17:13:00.000+08:00

if you get hurt in your world,

come to my world,

i will give you my hugs.

and last thing to remember,

never tell me you love me :((

2007-09-30T13:34:00.000+08:00

my sixth sense tells me that something going to happen

well.....it's not within my control

so i just got to get ready for~~~~

never mind, it's your choice

so

you decide.

woke up in early afternoon today as these few days have been doing OT till 2..

i had a really bad dream yesterday, and i cried throughout my dream,

with his presence.

it was really bad and so bitter

and i almost died.

well

one more month to go,

and u will not seeing me for a long time i think.

i played with them as we are really good friends,

and i like to have fun with them.

it's good to make people around you happy anyway.

but that doesn't mean im childish.

im just trying to hide my secrets

which nobody knows.

I know all of these,

you will never care.

It's okay,

take care yourself, and the one you love at least.

~be strong & smile~

2007-09-28T03:00:00.000+08:00

what if you fell for someone living in another world??
what if he just keep ignoring you??
what if im being oversensitive??
what if we are just friends??

im scared, to loss you,

either as my friend, or ~~~

i didnt regret, just heartbroken occasionally.

trying to go into your world,
is like
trying to take one step to reach north pole from south pole;

is like
waiting for the rain, in the desert;

as i
have no right to break the rule.

2007-09-26T23:30:00.000+08:00

tonight

the moonlight

is extremely bright

and

beautiful.

I wonder

what the shadow on the left part of the moon is??

wonder

still wonder

and

wondering :)

god bless i will pass my promos,

im studying overnight tonight

for many reasons

i just don't want to give up

on anything

or maybe something.

i wish to be a girl

who really chases after her dream,

i mean the real dream

but not daydreaming

like what i am doing nowadays

i, silly girl.

so stop being silly,

the heart needs to be filled

by something meaningful, achieving

bitter or sweet.....it doesn't matter.

don't make the dream in your heart empty.

and do not care about what others think.

it's easy to say, but hard to do.

so

challenge yourself, and do it.

show them you can do it.

show them you are someone.

i got to create the miracle myself

but not waiting for it to happen on me.

well.....

show yourself that you are a determined one.

and never ever make yourself feel sorry,

for anything.

today, it's not too late, girl.

P.S i will be using proper english to blog starts from today :D

hang on

and

do not be afraid :D

2007-09-25T23:17:00.000+08:00

dreaming of~~~~~

i wanna go to Korean....:D
haha

promos started today, i feel alright although i know im going to fail....
well

cheer up :)

2007-09-24T21:44:00.000+08:00

weird stuffs continue disturbing me......
i dunno how come i just throw away my FAVOURITE korean dining culteries after eating my dinner....well i accidentally left them inside the plastic bag, and forgot to take them out...i cant believe i will forget...damn SHIT!!!
and im like

having an aim, but living aimlessly.
having a dream, but dunno how to achieve.
having a desire, but just cant ~~~~

well.....nt giving up, just "pause" a second,

n

think.

why do people study computing?

cuz i have troubles studying them.
no matter how hard i try to rmb them,
theu just slip out of my mind.
guess computing is really not my cup of tea.

i dun wish to go back to the past,
as they are impossible,
and

the memories are too sweet to be spoiled.

let them remain,

and

im trying hard

to create another miracle :)

P.S my promos starting tomorrow, and
i just feel like dying...

2007-09-21T19:28:00.000+08:00

things keep going crazy, and they are freaking freaking, freaking scary....and i can't differentiate which is reality and dreams...Oh my goSHHHHHhhhhhhh!! what the hell is happening...JESUS!!

P.S I lost my house key today! JesUS!!

2007-09-19T23:32:00.000+08:00

i took a wrong bus again!!
well i seriously dunno wat is going on recently, like many things weird have been kept happening....
like the bus i took today, i saw it was 12!! but slowly slowly it drove to the other way.....oh well, luckily it drove me back to bedok at least.....never mind!

but still

im worried!

well...today i heard something when sitting on the bus, and this sentence just caught my sttention------a good leader leads by examples>>

i used to be a good one, but that was PAST!! so nothing to be proud of !!
not now.....sadly :( i have to admit the fact that im a really lousy leader....with poor self- discipline.....well i guess im just temporarily trapped inside a vicious cycle, and im trying so hard to get myself out of it. dun really wanna say much about it.....

thr are so many things keep running through my minds, and they make me lost, LOST....

guess today will be a long post......

im not good

though im smiling....truly, smile, is to hide the pains....that's so fake. but who wanna expose their own weaknesses anyway.

whenever i sleep, thr is just this feeling disturbing me that when am i going to wake up again?
im like dying while sleeping, well tis is nt a joke. the feeling of dying freak me out all the time, and im scare of go to sleep. but

im too tired.

whatever moments coming to me now will nt be easy....nobody can imagine
so i guess u also wont be understand.

but just pray that i will live through it, peacefully at least.

pray the lord :)

moments of loss are nt that bad actually, im trying to loss sth which seems to be important to me.....

put salts onto the wounds, that is how my heart feels....

guess after this year,

i will be stronger.....

mentally torturing is millions worse than physically.

so dun ever take the risk to try it, at least i dun wanna try it for the second time.

honestly, im hiding all those away from my parents, nt making them worried as they will be greatly shocke upon hearing all those...i will bear with them alone

my spirit is yelling: i wanna survive through, survive and survive....

looking at the world at this angle may not be the best,
neither is the worst.

so be positive, and

never give up wat you suppose to get/have.

jia you :)

2007-09-16T15:21:00.000+08:00

Time likes the flowing water

take away my happiness and sadness

the only thing is left for me

is

memory.

People might say

the night sky with colourful firework

is the most beautiful one.

In my eyes

the sky with your love

is the tenderest

and

most touching one.

2007-09-11T20:09:00.000+08:00

today, 9/11, an alerting number that strikes our heart whenever we mention it. So just wanna pray for the 2974 victims excluding 19 hijackers, that may peace and love stay with you forever, and may our mighty lord shower grace over you always. God bless you, the world loves you!

ok...now its for my toay's post.
recently exhaused over many things so dun really have mood to upate until i saw this news when i surfing the net, and sudenly realise todae is 9/11. Six years have passed, many things changed, many others remain still. I cant stop myself from being emoing as life is really unpredicable and..........wat's left in the end??

I. pray.............

2007-08-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

well....frankly speaking...im extra-ordinary emo recently...for a lot of reasons.. please do not ask me why or wat happen, cuz i dunno how to tell and also wat to tell. so...i can only keep them to myself, and waiting for them to be buried as time passes by, hopefully.

for right now, the only goal is to pass my promos...nth else, really nthing.....
my heart, it is so pain until i hav no feeling of crying or shouting out.
it's painful,
but i must endure.

therefore to all my friends, please pardon me, and forgive me if i sort of neglect you or not talking to you, i have no mean to do that, after this period of time, i will be fine, really.

i also thank all(you guys) for nt forgetting me, and still being really nice and friendly to me.
hope you guys could feel the feeling of me saying "thank you".

i mean it. :)

so hope,god bless you & me.
lord i pray that you could give me the strength,
shower me with wisdom, and the power of self-discipline.

i do not wish to disappoint anyone but yet im too weak to say that.
im like a tree without its roots,
a flower without its stem,
too fragile to touch,
yet to be protected by nothing.

i couldn't accept,
same for giving out,
i'm nothing....

at all.

i went to gaze the stars just now,
staring at the same sky,
looking at the same stars,
the 2 totally different feelings,
and im heartbroken.

wish i could endure...
and walk through them eventually.

im sick still....
physically,
and
mentally :(

2007-08-19T10:06:00.000+08:00

isolate myself apart
soaked among the silence
i wish for an eternalty

its early though
i cant promise to wait
satisfied of just being friends

smile more
you are charming
in a unique way

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its okay
if
im childish
to you.

Thanks to you :)

2007-08-18T01:04:00.000+08:00

sick. middle ear imbalance caused the world around me is turning all the time.
but
never mind, at least im feeling much better now.

todae was absent from sku, went to science centre in the afternoon cuz staying at home made me feel even more sicko. haha

i did computing in the morning...arrays and functions drove me crazy...so i wanted an escape. haha

i reached sc by around 4, it was fun, and i was truly enjoyin it. i like the moments which im alone, and appreciate everything around me silently, or explore sth im interested in without others' disturbance. well that doesn't mean im anti-social ok?! haha

SC is having an exhibition about the 7000 history of China, and an new series of exhibition abt info com technology.
you cant afford to miss them. so go SC if u r free...its worthwhile...

haha actually wanna stay on till 7 plus den go watch stargazing cuz SC having Stargazing section on every friday evening....but cannot wait for that long le as SC is closing at 6, and i gt nthin to do in between 6 to 7 plus..so eventuallly made my way to sembawnag to go play with my doggies...yeah!!

I MIss junior, QQ....haha
todae my legs kena a lot scraches....cuz of them..haha but never mind...i still love them always...
well...got to send them to bathe tml cuz they r really smelly todae...haha jus kidding!!
stayed on till 10 .30, den got to heading back home...i took 969 to tempinese...den 38 back to bedok...

well...todae i travelled the whole sg, bedok>>Jurong east>>Sembawang>>Tempinese>>bedok!!

tiring...and time now its 1.35am...im tired..
i still gt to help out my church's musical performance tis sunday, and therefore have to cancel my captain's ball match on sunday with nat!! WTH!!

sorry nat :(

okay...

haha bye bye and good night :D

2007-08-15T18:06:00.000+08:00

i lost my friendster account, well there is something wrong with my profile, and i cant view it. damn!! but nvm, at least i still have my beautiful blog over here. I love my blog as it records all my memories....haha love it.

well.....its too early, true.....so i shall not think all these right now. thanks to you.....hope u r happy, still the same....im enjoyin of workin at marriott....ha i love it.

2007-08-14T20:08:00.000+08:00

i dunno when it all started, why and how it has been going on, its not a crash, neither im insane, its jus a kinda of feeling that i wanna give u & make u feel happy...wish that ur life is not always surrounded by tiredness, and heavy responsibilities. At moments you could laugh happily without any worries. Though we both leading a different life, i wont force u in anyway, jus wish u to know that no matter wat u doing, u r always blessed!

u r working now, well.....hope the function has been running smoothly...hah :P

though i guess u may never see this post, still wanna say that----i love to see ur smiles...

2007-08-12T19:18:00.000+08:00

i wish i could,although it seems to be facing many difficulties......but stil, i just somehow wanna say this out, afterall it's the 1st time i did this....

im scared of being hurt, and i always have no confidence in this.....i feel lost when encountering all these as i have no idea how to handle them so that nobody will gets hurt. i just feel so pain....

being able to be thr when u r in need, sharing ur troubles when u frown, although i cannot do much for you right now....i just dun wanna see u so tired! hoping u r enjoyin ur life no matter what u r doing....and simply be happy...

n most importantly, im really scared of being avoided, esp by those ppl i love so much...haiz...still rmb, got one time when i was in sec 3, a guy who use to be very close to me suddenly isolate me so far away,that one week was the saddest week i ever experienced....well....e reason was because he had some problems in his relationship,n the gal was jealous of him being close with me....well that sounds childish,undeniably. but i still can't forget..that feeling of being ignored!

honestly im scare of it....
haiyaa...y am i so emo todae?!

well....nvm....be strong :D

2007-08-07T16:00:00.000+08:00

i.......at times, miss those time i spent with you, but somehow i know that it may be impossible for us to continue.....however, i still wanna prolong the memory, i wanna bring joys to you, and wanna know u more though the time is so short....

i will treasure it if u give me the chance....

bearing all these pains, trying to hide my joys....telling myself that i must be strong, i, will walk through them with the encouragement u'v given me.....

i dun have confidence still :(

2007-08-01T20:50:00.000+08:00

i wanna pass my promos....i shouldn't never give up....for them, for myself....be strong and work hard through this period, everything will be alright. Im grateful for being a member of 24/07, and got a life chance to meet all those great people in this class. therefore...

i treasure them a lot....
i cherish the friendships we all build amgst one another.....
and

all of those...i love my daddy and mummy the most! yes..undeniably...

well diff ppl having diff past, present, and future....
individual's experience is all uncomparable...and extremely unique....

so im learning to enjoy my life, listening and enjoy other ppl's life as well....
i used to be so talkative..but no longer now...

maybe a bit negatively, i think talk so much also for not much use...so...i prefer to keep quiet now...and use the time to talk to myself, to think, to observe and to appreciate........

its just so great to have u guys beside me...helping me along...i will...
sorry, and thank you :D

2007-07-30T21:39:00.000+08:00

im thankful to all u guys...and i will study hard...for you.

2007-07-21T14:21:00.000+08:00

my promos is coming(25th september--3rd octorber) and im jus simply stressed up <*frowning*>...while...no matter what, we still gt to face so many things which we dun wanna encounter...nevermind..hope everyhting freezes here, and stop moving forward...although thr is nothing good happening...

p.s thank you nat!! i love sports woman, and i love to be one too! ha:D

2007-07-13T10:48:00.000+08:00

waoh!! finally i can get access to my blog again..well...interesting! recently many interesting things happened, added colours to my dull life.. im start studying now..no more playing and enjoy life?? not now please....after entered Tj, well so many things have changed and we, are growing up...."the school expect u to know wat to study" this is someone told me during the period of JCTs...it moved me...honestly!

the more i look at my class, the more i love it...although my class has so many ponners, but they are damn interesting people...cool, love to have fun, and most importantly...extremely LAME (to some of them ) haha i have no offence to any of you guys please!! i jus simply enjoy all these!!

Ytd came across another interesting case. i got to know a guy who was my ex sku mates but actually we'v never see each other b4...he transfered away from my sec after sec1, and i joined my sec sku in sec2....so dunno how were we connected, and its kinda of strange that y would i add him on my msn since he said it was i added him...lol...

anyway....im having computing practical now..sitting in the com lab, and suppose to do my programming...nvm...i still like computing although im so lazy at programming...yes i will buck up from NOW on..now please!!

okok...actually just wanna try out whether i can gt access to my blogger ot not cuz b4 this, i cant log in thus no chance to update my blog as well....

okok gtg le...ZAC has been keep making funny noise over thr....another interesting guy!! haha....
will come back in some times....take care!!

2007-06-27T12:26:00.000+08:00

i did badly for my JCT,
feeling really upset,but dun wanna say much..
so just wanna thanks those ppl who have been keep encouraging me throughout,
i will really work hard...
and make a difference
for myself...
dun give up on me...
im a idoit...
so i wanna grow up.....

2007-05-29T16:58:00.000+08:00

waho finally im back 4 blogging!
well....have been working for the past three days ever since i ended my titan and sports carnival.
DELTA WON! WE WON EVERYTHING OKAY! i was so damn happy, purely joy of happiness.
and
i got SIXTH for titan individual overall. ok lah not bad, but still got to improve!
haha thanks to nat for never fail to encourage me throughout! i love you!
wahaha :D

by the time e sports car finished already like friday afternoon, den 4 plus still gt to rush down to Orchard to work, and continue all the way till sunday!
so i was totally PARALYSED on mon. cannot get out of my bed. and
i got SUN BURN!!
which making me feel damn sad. okay...and cuz of the 3 DAYS BBQ under e sun, i got serious heating also..hmmm is kinda of chinese medical condition.
so...okay lah now,
everything is over, i gt to enjoy my holiday, really!

n my laptop SPOILED! i can't even on it. WT....frustrating man!
im now sitting in the yishun CC e-club to updating my blog...aiyoryor so poor thing.
so considering of buying a new laptop....i saw one today, at harvey norman. not bad...so haha

consideringgggggggggggggggg :P

ok see u...i got somemore works later tis week...i will be like dying by the end of tis week...hehe :P

2007-05-13T20:54:00.000+08:00

im here to say

ya! tis is my life,it will be how i wanna it to become.....so gonna to face wateva happen to .......hmmm nvm

everyone is falling sick..including me...fever n throat pain...lol.
tj so many stuffs n events going on...lol..my pathetic life....

todae disovered a new song...love is colour blind. nice!

2007-05-11T23:20:00.000+08:00

CRIED, N REALISED.

A CLEARER MIND, N A MATURE HEAD.

NO DOUBT, I HAVE BEEN TOO CHILDISH,
being surrounded blindly, by my own world.
how the world has going on, i may have no idea.
tt shows how stupid i am, n i still enjoy myself so much.

there are much much more, i need to do, i have to do, and i must achieve.
its so sad to see...
n pain.

i don't wish to expirence what i had expirencing today, it wasn't like the end of the world, but the termination of my dream. that makes me hate myself.

for the first time in my life, i doubted myself, i doubted my ability of achieving my goals, which i have never thought of before.

nvm, it was good. making me realised tt life is no longer the same, the sweet northview life ended long ago. for me, i have to face it with a high up head.

Ppl arrounding me are too bright and shiny, making me have no confidence to look at.
at times, ask myself, do i really good at anything???
achievements?? ok...think they are partially rubbish.

wan respect?! earn it yourself.
the world is fair. equal opportunity for everyone. no discrimination.
it only need our own actions. so what am i waiting for??

jus do it!

thanks for carian todae. thanks for your hugges. it made me feel much better.
made me feel that there is someone who still cares. thank u my darling.

o well. no matter admit it or not. the world is like this, cruel...n equality 4 everyone.

sad. lost. blank. pain.

2007-05-10T21:52:00.000+08:00

yes...its so hard..n making me mentally exhausted...but i just dun wanna to give them up. i have been striving them for so hard, for so long....

as a choir member, we really have a huge task to go...two more concerts to go...with rmbing all the songs..

as a delta titan, except for doing my part well, mus adjust myself to cooperate with e team, not in term of spirit, but also in physical training! i shall nv nv drag my team behind. and breaking the titan records are really chanllenging,it is so chanllenging until i almost have doubts on myself. but i never thinking of quiting titan, im proud to be one of them, n the only question i keep asking myself is "how" "how" and more "how"......can i do it?? one moment of todae's training, i just got so EMO , n started worrying so many things.

as a class rep, i have been doing my part well! i admit it! with NO ANY SINGLE EXCUSE. i wont give ppl all the rubbish excuses or explain to them this is not my faults or that is not my bisnuss (i suddenly forget how to spell bisnuness) wateva shit la! ppl not satisfy with ur jobs tt means u didnt do enough.
so no matter wat, i just dun wan to give up tis job. together with my dearest partner--GORDEN, tgt we can do everything well. With tis promise, we will work hard, yes as what i said earlier......we shall keep all our results at B's and above.
ppl who r able to tk care themselves well, can then take care of others. we also thank 24/07 guys a lot for u all's tolerance to our previous irressponsibilities n thanks for supporting us as well. THANK YOU GUYS!!

so i think i shall end here. im trying to repick up myself as a good , responsible gal,so jia you to myself. n to GORDEN.wahaha n really thanks a lot for those who cares about me, like JUNYI(thr i no need of speech btw us), SANDRA, VANNY, N MANY MANY MORE!! i will be better....hope i will find the strength to push me on for the rest of may n JUne holidae............

GOD BLESS U...E SWEETEST BLOG READER OF MINE! haha :P

2007-04-27T22:32:00.000+08:00

lavender---waiting 4 love

the exhausting feeling is sth tt really mk me suffer....

2007-04-26T21:41:00.000+08:00

hey im here to blog again.....busy over titan n pw n tests nowadys, no time to blog....titan trainin ok 4 me so far..i hav run almost 20k within tue n thurs training...so tired..still gt so many works to be completed.....haizzz..stressed!!

2007-04-15T13:49:00.000+08:00

i had no choice but to go back to work again bt pls dun ask me why....sorry 4 tis wil make quite a number of ppl who concern abt me upset..i could promise tt tis time it wont be as etraggrevate as last time..as soon as the thing is completed, i wil stop immediately. sorry to you guys..n also thanks 4 always being thr 4 me...:P

ytd went back to marroitt!! yeah! every1 was surprised of my new hair cut :P
n Joe bought me my belated birthday cake for me--It was Green tea Tiramisu cake!! i love it! thank you! Joe!!
ytd workin wif Obrin at 2nd floor haha relaxin man!! :P

n 4 other things....i got my hair cut recently..into a concave shape..haha have been receiving controvercial opinions a lot..heehee :P

huivon told me something tt day on phone, it was abt hy de...no offence of writing out his name. honestly i feel like being cheated! do u know e feeling of being cheated??? it is so disgusting, hurting , n shameful !! guess he may never feel tt....haiz...except 4 all those, i m numb all over...

i tasted e bitterness of love....getting hurt is jux simply pain n bleeding!!

hmm luky i have my friends thr.....n all of them...:P

2007-04-10T21:11:00.001+08:00

say no to no!!!

isn't it high time someone got negative about negativity?
yes it is!!!
look around the world is full of things that accordin to nay-sayers,
should never happened.
"impossible"
"impratical"
"NO"
and yet "yes"
YES continents have been found..
yes straw is being turned into biofuel to power cars.
yes yes yes
wat does it take to turn no into yes???
and,, when the problem seems most insoluble,
when the chanllenge is hardest,
when everyone else is shaking heads,
to say, let's go!!

2007-04-09T22:48:00.000+08:00

haha todae is a totally scrolled up monday!! n i really hate it....lol
e first morning o the week gonna caught cuz of three offences!!! i wanna die liao lah......it was f***ing irritating...the sreamin monkey was a super super eyesight CONTAMINATION to me also!!!! i gt more troubles or the nex few days lor!!

poor jon, hmm i really take pity on him...climbin half way also ganna by a stupid monkey!! lol.....wat's wrong wif them????

lol tml go buy spray to spray back my hair first haha wan me to dye back//?? no way.......at least wont do it 4 them...ha

den preeti they all said i m a problematic kid......lol AM I????

hmmm wanna go zzzzz le....yeah!! good night:P

2007-03-21T20:05:00.000+08:00

wahooo..again i come back posting..haha..todae gonna to upload tonnes of pictures i took few days ago....haha..:P

today is wed. ytd was JUNYI b'dae...so...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JUNYI worx!! :)

can you see e candle lights???

17 worx!!!

2007-03-07T16:42:00.000+08:00

wahooooo...green, the trendy colour of 2007, haha spring is coming..so happy!! wat have i been doing for the past 17 days neh???? the answer is "dunno"!! i poning sku de orientation for e nex 2 days, which means my march holiday starts from TODAY!! yeah!! am i sound stupid??!! hehe....

n guys of 24/07 pls take note tt we having a cg outing nex thurs...meeting you guys at city hall MRT station at 11.30, n we will be goin to SAKAE SuSHi!! haha...den those who wanna play pool go ahead after lunch..haha..so expecting..nex time shall collect more class fund, den go out regularly!! loz...y am i talking all those thgy leh???!!!

hmm...feel like go takin a nap b4 afternoon jogging..haha..todae our super Mr Gorden brought us out during lunch time, n then all of us went home then...haha. .wat class is tis man!!..haha...:P

2007-02-21T12:24:00.000+08:00

im havin chem tutorial now...hmm....im thinkinh something actually...different ppl at same age are doing totally different things...exp: at 2o yr old, some r doing part-time job such as teaching in sku while other ppl may jux simply slacking at home, go out shopping...same ppl waiting for NS enlisting, some r luking for sale jobs while others may jux staying at home n playing computer games day by day to live away their lives...same 17,some r hard core in campus,strive for knowledge,while others may simply having a nice chit chat n eating their burgers in air-con mac..hmm...all these make a diffenrent to e world, make a contribution to the different living standard of our world..tt e reason tt how some ppl could live a carefree live while others may have to struggling for their meals....

2007-02-20T23:08:00.000+08:00

happy chinese new year to everyone wor!! i finally come back posting again..cuz hav been workin through e chinese new year holiday..also wanna say a congrats to hv, haha..for some reason anyway...im happy for her! n gt to know a few new colleagues, who are really nice ppl...

first day of new year, i went to meet hv at brother ringo house after my work which finished at 11pm. we chit chat, den play mah jong...gt to know bro ringo's daughter who's called lisa..i onli gt to know her name after i left e house..paiseh...she's friendly n pretty, both of us are korean shows fans!! wahaha..den we talked a lot abt all e korean shows we watched before...haha...really had a nice chat!!

i drank 3 full glasses fo whisky on e rockx...hehe...den in e end got drunk!!
haiz..nex time really should train myself to drink more bah.....
honestly...feeling painfully broken at tt moment..cuz of sth stupid i did.bt nvm le, i will be okz...i will gt over it eventually, hope tt day would come quickly..
luckily i was able to think calmly for these few days, i would restart my life all over again, in sku...my family and my personal life....i wanna to giv my friends e best me, nt making them worrying abt me, n make e ppl ard me feel secure, n confident to me...

feel tt im getting more n more low-profile..hehe....indeed not suitable for u, its a big contrast anyway. so im not expectin anything surprising to happen to me....instead jux to live my life quietly, without disturbance....

2007-02-14T23:58:00.000+08:00

blue V'Dae......i hav no idea....im like a idoit, being played ard...so idoitic!! and so, i will let it go withOUT regrets....without tears...without heavy sigh....cuz..it is not worthy!

alowing myself to float in the air, is not a wise decision.....regaining control over myself is the only resolution....haiz....being upset & disappointed....dun ask me why, cuz i oso cant explain why.....

2007-02-10T00:45:00.000+08:00

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if u dun wan others know tt u r lying, u must then hang on to it.....no matter how heartbroken it is......tt is loV3! n so i must....have to......continue.... lying to.....

2007-02-10T00:27:00.000+08:00

today got back my O's results. hmm...i ranked 5th position...haiz...lousy position for me...hehe then gt overall 7 A's, 2 B's.....okay bah..nt 2 bad.
tired le...gtg slp le...bb :-)

2007-02-05T23:40:00.000+08:00

ah gong dun be sad,okay?? cheer up & believe in urself tt u will do well nex time de....jia you worx!! here wanna tell u sth, hmm.....seriously, u really gt to sacrifice something in order to achieve something ELSE which is more important, this is called "Opportunity Cost" in H1 Economy! haha..kz...since u know tt u will be feeling so bad for nt doing ur exam well, then do something to it, dun jux leave it thr, n trying to ignore it....okayZ?!! orelse u will only end up upseting urself evenmore de...frankly saying,i personally think tt studying in poly is actually more challenging than studying in Jc..in many ways..i believe u know tt as well...so jux hope tt u will continue on on the RIGHT path, e rest of two yrs r NOT long lor, so do treasure them well, n fully utilize it,erm....rmb tis,"a successful person is someone who can live his live prondly n without any regrets!" i forgot taken from where de le, bt i do like tis sentence very much.....so hope tt u could also live ur life with no regrets,n stay truly happy everyday!! :P

so in ending, wish u to have an enjoyable holiday worx!!! :)

okz..im tired now le,today nthing much happpen la..haha..morning presented our class english ski to judgers...haha..so funny...i was acting an old lady crossing e road, den mus face e traffic light walk...i walked walked,den suddenly found tt the traffic light was NOT facing me,how am i going to walk. n then stop without seeing e colour of e light??!!!

in e end, i mus TRY my Best to walk in front of the traffic light, which made me almost reached e edge of e stage, jux in order to see e LIGHT!!! haiz....yingxiao ah!!! then we took tonnes of pictures....haha..all damn funny de... nex time i receive e pics, will post them in my blog...haha....
kz..gtg le...again midnight liao...on WHICH DAY can i go to bed BEFORE 11??????

haiz..so tired!! bye bye lor..good nightZ....:P

2007-02-05T01:38:00.000+08:00

yawN***** 1.40am!! jux finished watching a new Korean series, waha...full series finished liao! nice nice...thr is one sentence saying tt, dun go into e grape yard plantation with somebody in the season of harvesting, or u will fall in love with him/her.....aiya, tis sentence said in mandairn is nicer..haha...

today off work at 6pm, then went to far east plaza work work, brought one beaUTifuL NECklace....nex time wil go again with Hui von to buy somemore clothes...haha......

by e way, Hui von was nt feeling well today, think was she over-exhausted liao...nv rest well, den everyday go work, after all she is still young,different from those captians, or supervisors...so stil need to rest well....anyway,really Hope tt she will recover quickly!!

over e weekend, injured my feet& legs cuz of workin, think is time to change my shoes le, it is suffering for me!! loL....mus change id nex time....den stil ask me to buy skirt, wahhh...i gonna bankrupcy liao...haha....
shall find a time go queensway & clementi to walk ard....

i wanna watch "ONCE IN A SUMMER" !! is thr any1 who is free to give me a company?????? haiz....cant wait for it liao....ha..

gtg sleep liao....or else cant wake up lor...ha nitEzzz...:)

2007-02-02T22:16:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY / HAPPY B'DAY / HAPPY B'DAY/
HE BIN!!!!
ALL E BEST IN WATEVA U DO...& TAKE CARE ALWAYS!!

our class captain's ball tis afternoon was really GREAT!! im so proud of CG 24/07...let me intro my team members first bah..shall rmb them 4eva de...
Leader: WeiXiong
Members:Jonathan
Matin
Ryan
Crystal
Celesta
Sandra
hmm..did i miss out someone??? thr should be eight ppl altgt de..nvm..nex time i will add on when i recall it...

haha.thr were altgt 4 matches,our results: 1.won
2.draw
3.loss
4.won
nt sure about the actual score, bt sadly we were nt qualified for e semi-final..bt NVM, we did our best, & we r proud of ourselves!! YEAH!!then in one of e matches, i was asked to be e person who catch e ball..OMG! like hell..im so short, n i cant even touch e ball AT ALL...it was so EMBARRASSING!! hiaz...who ask i cant grow taller...so regretted tt i didnt drink loz milk when i was a kid!! hehe....feel so sorry about it!! hehe....hopefully we will win all e way to end de..haha..this coming weekend gt work,full day work..gt money lor! haha...:P

2007-01-30T22:15:00.000+08:00

by the way, todae Sandra and Mervyn taught me how to play Canon...waho..so happy!! here a BiGG "THANk YoU" TO them for teaching me...i found i really love to see ppl playing piano...haha...:P

& todae, i didnt keep my promise with God, so how neh???
& my MSN MEssenger refuse to work 4 me le..so recently cannot go online chat..den sandra still say good somemore cuz if i dun chat on9, i will be sleeping early n can go to sku e nex day!! wahaha...wat theory is this miss Sandra wang??
hehe..okay..since u all do everything 4 my goods, i shall listen to u guys de worx.really wanna say "thanks" to everyone in CG 24/07 cuz they are really GREAT!

2007-01-30T22:03:00.000+08:00

im such a bad gal..HaiZzzz...so sad!!
i was late for sku AGAIN tis mornin, and the worst thigy was i kena caught by DM....wahoooo...hoRAyyy!!then he askes me to report him tml at 7.20 sharp sharp....which may seems so difficult for me...OMGGG!! bt.....nvm lah, im used to it liao....sounds im so hopeless.....

then Jon & weixiong were absent again, so our english fair ski was postponed to nex mon..another HOrAY!! HAHaa, at least i wont so fast den become an old lady liao...ha..:P

then PE, we ran 2.4 todae..i gt second....haha...althought its stil very very e sLOW!! MUS TRAIN MORE! still hestating whether i should join e ROAD RUN in feb!!! any advice fro u guys?? then Jonathan ran soooooo fast!! waaahhh....cool lor..jux recover fro sickness,den can run so fast!! if i were him, i will thank god even if i only can roll on e floor....hahaha....so laME!!

todae gt to sleep early cuz tml mus early wake up....sian nah!! haha...tml my ah gong de exam, so here wish him good luck& all e best worx! ah gong, yAo jia yOu hor! jux now msg u, wanna tell u tt e breeze frm east coast park also wanna wish u good luck de, too bad u never reply my msg...

okay la, i shall end up here...bye bye la...:P
nitEzzzz...

2007-01-29T22:38:00.000+08:00

todae Jonathan and Weixiong were absent as one is suffering high fever, the othr one is struggling wif sth...ha..the word i dunno how to spell, so jux write it as sth bah!! anyway,hope that they could get well soon, and take care worx!!

hmm..im thinking if i fsting wholeheartedly for a wish for 5 days, will God answer me the prayer? or rather my question?? there are so many doubts in my heart which have started making me feel restless...my heart has no where to rest, and not even a single thing for me to lean again....so if i say, i will start fsting from now, which is 10.40pm on mon, and lasting for five days, could i get the answer i wish to hear?? DOUBT!!
bt no matter how e outcome will be, i will still do it as i believe in fate. started now.....hehe...hang on worx!!

well, talk abt some sku stuffs happened todae. today had my first economy test,it was totally blurred and i seriously dunno wat to right...n also suddenly realised tt i have been left far behind. i have been too playful already. its time to clear up mmy mind le...haha

the rest of the sub such as computing, math, i still can understand de, jux lazy to do homework...i am A BAD GAL!! who could save me neh?!!! haiz....save myself bah...:(

GP period we rehearsed our ski. it was so fun! Ryan is definitely a tian cai!! our ski would not have been completed without him. so down here, wanna say a "thank you" to Ryan and of course, all the CG24/07 ppl. you guys are so great!! n so united!! i love my cg!! :P okay, come back to e ski, i wil be acting an old lady crossing the road, then walk halfway, the traffic light turns red, n im stucked in e middle of the road, and at tt moment, a SUPERMAN appears to save me....haha....OLD LADY!! i wonder how come everywhr i all play e part of acting old lady neh?!!! one is enough....hehe

at night was choir practise...i went thr by 6pm, hoohoo...late by almost two hours...cuz gt sth urgent to do..so...haha..no choice de!! the practise quite okay la, we all talked a lot wif those senoirs, n i was also mis-thought by some ppl as 1 of e senoirs..ooooo...how can it be man??!!! jux jkjk....haha :D

waaahohooo..my post todae is soooo long, n i really shall ends up here le...haha...

2007-01-28T20:06:00.000+08:00

jux reached home, back from work...tired!!
so nothing much to say..hmm...dunno wat im thinking everyday...:P

2007-01-26T23:34:00.000+08:00

today staying at home, revising my econ, plus im nt feeling well, so slept away almost half of the day. Haiz...tml got work at nine..actually wanted to wait for his call, bt in e end, he also nv call back...so... sad! :(
bt nvm la,things haven been settled down completely, n nothing is confirmed yet..haiz..dun wanna talk le... :(
sat...see you!

2007-01-26T00:54:00.000+08:00

wah..jux came back from Tempinese..went to watch movie wif ah gong & hui von. Hv went to JB todae, den brought me sth so interesting worx..so went to meet her after sku which is about 6 plus. We all went to Mac for dinner& also chit chat for a while til 7 plus. then feeling bored, gave ah gong a call. haha...so paiseh woke him up la, ppl over thr sleeping, n we all here talkin nonsense...:P
haha i should have thank him for nt scolding me when disturbing his sweet dream!! haha....
so 9 plus, three of us went to watchthe japanese show "the LOFT" . think should b a scary ghost show, bt the thing ended up like nobody understand wat it is talking abt. haha...a show directed by a failure director yah!! :P seriously we dun understand a single piece of the story, went thr play play onli. then tis hui von today also took e wrong medicine, kept MOLESTING me!! nex time i shd hav called POLICEMAN liao!! then tgt wif ah gong, bully ppl.....!! dun worry , i will take my revenge NEX TIME, which will nt be far away de. hahaha...wait horx!!

so now is damn tired,ah gong also gong gong de, haven been totally wake up...haha...poor ah gong neh!!

okay...ends up here first bah...wish everyone have a good night! bye bye...:P

2007-01-25T11:07:00.000+08:00

im at sku hub now, surfin e net tgt wif sandra, weixiong, celesta and anavil.while, later stil gt so mai lessons to go...sian neh...
nex tue is our english fair ski audition...hope tt we will do well....
our class is really filled wif talented ppl & CG24/07 is e BEST!! chEERS!!

2007-01-22T22:02:00.000+08:00

so stupid...im so stupid!

2007-01-22T21:09:00.000+08:00

this is a photo we took wif our poor Ryan on 19th of Jan...which happened to be a lucky day for him...okok..Ryan mus take care worx...
see our CG24 so united!! i LOVE tis pic! so nice...
let me intro my classmates to u guys bah!
from left to right: Jonathan, Mervyn, Anavil, Weixiong, Celesta, me and Sandra.

2007-01-22T19:59:00.000+08:00

monday, a new startin of a wk,happy day!
i cant deny tt i hav a feeling for u,bt i cant do anything more than tt...so many uncertainies, n therefore, im nt sure..what should i do..& where shall i put my heart at...everything happened too fast. if tis causes any confusions to u,im sorry abt it...hmm..friends?

2007-01-21T19:36:00.000+08:00

here is one of my favourite song...hope u wil enjoy it....

歌曲:Jesse McCartney - Because You Live

Staring out at the rain, with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answer,
somewhere I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know what I didn't know
Because you live, and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live girl, my world has twice as many stars in the sky
It's all right I survived
I'm alive again
Cuz of you made it through every storm
What is life what's the use if you're killing time
I'm so glad I found an angel,
somewhere
Who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly looking in your eyes
Because you live, and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
when nobody else can help
Because you live girl (you live) my world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live
Because you live, there's a reason why,
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always
Because you live, and breathe can help)
Because you live girl, my world(my world) has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live girl,(cuz you live) my world has everything
I need to survive,
Because you live,
I live
I live

2007-01-21T01:23:00.000+08:00

honestly, i felt sad now..hmm..a bit disappointed, upset, n e scattering of my heart. hm....jux forget it! nothing has been started yet, wat im imagine??!! its so scary..i dun wanna think about it. let nature goes its own way bah!

today went to met hui von after her work, we went to Bugis had our dinner n walk walk ard e bugis street...well..saw a lot of things..it was really fun!! haha..i love it...then acco her go marriot cash out, n then departed at Orchard MRT, went home. hmm....nex time den meet up again bah..todae cannt stay too late cuz she gt work at 9am tml...let her hav a good rest bah! see i so good!! haha...good night lor...:P

time now is 1.30am, i cant sleep, dunno waiting 4 wat...aiya...crystal faster go sleep bah...after wake up, stil gt to study hard! well...start my life all over again bah...bt i stil wondering, is it true? is it true??i wish it could be, bt also know tt it isn's the time....so i really dunno how...i feel e great uncertainty pondering in my heart, n yet, i can do nothing to smooth it back or calm it down...let god decides! its a joy to talking to him...tt all i wanna say today.

2007-01-16T02:57:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone! A great Happy New Year to everybody! after almost one year, i have finally re-update my blog which i almost forgot everything about it, eg, e address, my user name, and my password!!! But fortunately, haha...with God's blessing, i saved my dearing blog...

okok..well..I am now studying at Temasek Junoir College which is a truly wonderful college for me. I could easily get everything used to it, and i have made many many new and good friends so far. Days by days, Jc life is going on the track, i sometimes feel that im living in a dream, a dream that seems so uncertain to me. Occasionally, i may even doubt myself, is that the real life im having now? Here im nt saying that i dun like my current life or anything else, oppositively, i wholeheartedly enjoy my life and love my college.

well......my class now is 24/07. With God's blessing, my class is filled up with abundant talented pupils who are either good at sports, or performing Arts such as dancing, or choir. There are even two guys who can do Beat boxing rather nice. They are cool, really!! They are really fantastic ppl. I love my CG (24/07). Of course, my CG tutor is also a nice teacher who is also our computing teacher.

talking about my subjects and studies,hmm....all are quite okay for me. i 've taken those subs i really interested in, and most of the studies works are independent work, which is very suitable for myself, from my personal pt of view.

well..tis is only the start of JC1, things that are unexpectable may still come out unexpectably, so just live my everyday life fruitfully, and enjoy everything.

btw, i still wanna to mention that the choir practise sometimes make me feel very bored!!haha..hopefully i could get used to it ASAP!!

the time now is 3.10. 16th of jan.2007.
my first post in year 2007.
just finished chatting with my Ah Gong, as both of us are struggling with our works. So here i wanna say, ah gong,jia you, jia you....
A ZA A ZA Fighting!!!
6am i will give u a morning call..haha....:P
okay..ends up here first. see you soon!
btw: our CG blog gonna come out soon, pls visit it after it comes out.that will be a very interesting blog.....!!

okay...May God bless you!

2006-05-27T15:55:00.000+08:00

finally, i finished my mid year exam...needless to say, my results were damn lousy and i was really upset abt it. but one thing i felt satisfied about was my project won a bronze award in the national SYSF competition. haha...happy happy!! okay..tt all...im now applying for the DSA of njc, but i dunno whether can anot, hopefully gos bless me tt i will pass the first entry n get a chance to take their exams. i wanna go in, its my dream to go in, i can do it! God bless me pls..

2006-05-14T23:28:00.000+08:00

well..after much hesitating, i came back n update my blogger. can say that recently my life has been lyk a shit, a completely mess. i have no mood on my studies, and cuz of my project, i jus couldnt sit in front of my table peacefully and do my mid yr revision. im wondering what e hell im doing...its really a disappointment.

the time now is 11.30pm, jus finished watching a show n yet, my revision has progressed none. then having a bad headache oso which might because of the nap i took earlier. i cannt slp in the day time esp in the afternoon as that will definitely give me a bad headache. tomorrow is bio and chemistry paper, my sixth sense is telling me that i wont do well for it.

finished bathing, i sat down to calm myself down. im now missing someone like a hell, i feel like calling him but lazy to talk, so jus put it aside. wanted to chat wif him on9 but sadly he is not on9 now. erm...i dunno y, jus miss him, dying of hearing his voice. what can i do next?? i dun wan to slp now...totally no mood...

2006-05-01T11:28:00.000+08:00

Eliz ah..pls lah..kept asking me to update..loz..my life is too boring to write le lah..labour day, public holiiday.ma de exam coming, i have no mood to study..WTF!! i so sad..nvm...struggling over tis peroid i will feel better,..jia you jia you!!

2006-04-19T23:05:00.000+08:00

absent from sku for two days...first was food poisoning, dunno y after eating e KFC, then gonna *** , then e next day, go see doctor, aniway, my stomach has always come out problems recently, think i've already causeing sum damages or disfuntionability liao...cuz of my irregular and poor eating habits. then she asked me to go for a wat check up, to take out sth frm my stomach! eeee...so disgusting....its some sort of mini-operaion bah i think. then now, cannt eat anithing, onli can sit thr and waiting to b dying..haha...recently i gonna abandon my com for about one month plus le, mid yr coming, mus study hard le...ok..no mood write ani more..take care la u guys!!

4E1 roX....

2006-04-10T19:29:00.000+08:00

well...another monday...nothing much lor..recently not in good mood cuz sth happened! but i still got one thing wanna say>>>> mrs Cry yah, u better bring ur doggie for a shower bah....it is getting dirtier liao...haha....so mani hands have touched it, so r u still going to put it besides ur head while slping?? unhygienic de lah...haha....:P

okokz...tt all....>.<

2006-04-07T21:12:00.000+08:00

i am seeking for e forgiveness From my heavenly father..
Our God, you bless everyone whose sins u forgive
and wipe away.
You bless them by saying: "you told me your sins without trying to hide them, and now i forgive you."

Before I confess my sins,
my bones felt limp.
and i groaned all day long.
Night and day your hand
weighted heavily on me,
and my strengh was gone
as in the summer heat.

So i confessed my sins, and told them all to you.
I said:"I will tell you the lord
each one of my ssins."
then you forgave me
and took away my guilt.

You said to me,
"i will point out the road
that you should follow.
i will be your teacher
and watch over you.
Don't be stupid
like horses and mules
that must be led with ropes
to make them obey.

All kinds of troubles
will strike the wicked,
but your kindness shields those who trust you, lord.
And so your good people
should celebrate and shout.

We praise you, our mighty lord. You have showered your people with love and forgiveness, Your children will always be there, get ready to serve you. To the kingdom of heavenly father!

2006-04-07T20:48:00.000+08:00

moody day! First of all, i wanna say sorry to HIM! really sorry abt tt. hmm..i dun wan to explain here, jus hope that u can understand...i didnt mean to blame you, i was jus really angry at tt time upon seeing what he was doing.

many moments of times, i jus feel so unfair, but i dun wan to say anything cuz for me, leader must pay more than her grp members. but i accepted it, doesnt mean there is no limit.....sorry to u guys.....feeling really down....

2006-04-06T20:49:00.000+08:00

whenever i am down, you are not there...whenever i need you, i couldn't find you. whenever i talk to you, the thing i will get back is only frowning. i don't know wat happened between us, think is i got some problems. whenever i see you, i will have mood swing, why our relations become so mesirable?? i feel guilty while facing you, i feel weird while talking to you, the only thing i could say is, im fall in love woth you! hope you will understand......

2006-04-05T20:45:00.000+08:00

yoz..yis one is draw by my handsum handsum son-in-law..hardworking n nice guy!! n treasure my daughter loadZ..!! CX..jia YOU!!

E first one..e big big cake, is Eliz gave me de! wahhhh..so touched!! i luv u daughter!! haha...take care if urself n ur By yeh!!

2006-04-04T17:14:00.000+08:00

hmm..todae absent frm sku. im having a fever ..feeling down...:P
miss everyone in sku..esp my mrs cry! haha..:)

2006-04-03T21:31:00.000+08:00

wah..another mon..todae nothing special, everything is too normal to mention la! now i changed my seat to the last row, haha..sitting besides my ah di and my fake son yeh!! haha...so fun of them! loz...then i always make my ah di disappointed..hmm unpurposely de actually! so i dunno how la, wanna give him a compensation bah, but yet haven gt a chance lah..haha..then jia wei was absent todae, my mrs cry had to seat wif tis Huivon da jie!! haha..another interesting gal!! loz... keke...todae quite slack la..i stayed back until 6.30, then went home wif my laopo..regina yor! n Arron laogong, n leo..n CX n Irwin?! lol i dunno how to spell his name lah! haha...SI cX...bangsai me sia...qi si wo lah!! nvm nvm WO REN!!

OKAY ...tt all bah..tml no physic test yeh!! haha...happy?!! lol..okay gt to go n study la!!

bb lah...missya my mrs cry!! haha...:P

2006-04-01T20:11:00.000+08:00

haha..Happy april fool's day!! hor hor...i was FOOLED todae!! haha...todae is sat, a great sat 4 me! woke up at almost ten, then took a bath, n reached northpoint at 11.55 to meet sham, cuz i would be meeting her at 12. then tis kind miss, trying to test my patience, arrived at 12.20...waolao...see i was so patient hor! can wait ppl fpr such a long time! i got really frustrated la at e end which made me kept eating food..loz...poorthing sia...then sham told me tt we onli hav to reach jiawei house at one!! WTh..i had really nothing to say liao..then sham n i went to e store, which i 4got wat e name is le, at second level, to buy bag for sham, she bought a new black colour bag...then we processed to jiawei house.

after checking e map, we decided to take 811. heheX...we got on e bus n started chatting n talking crap. haha...then after 10 min, we suddenly realised tt how come e bus was kept circling around onli at yishun area, no little intention to go to khatib..horhor...we dunno la, if e map showed tt 811 can go to naval base primary, we jus sit on e bus n see lor...then within our expectation, e bus went back to interchange again, n e second round, it went to khatib thr...loz...wasting our time sia...in e end, we noe tt we got on e bus at e wrong place...heheX...

reaching jia wei place at around 1.30, jas they all haven even reach neh..hhaaa...so we then sat down n continued chatting....10 min later, e whole gang came...surprisingly i saw RUSSEL!! yeh,....haha...didnt expect he would come..it was onli after e "battle", sham n i then got e conclusion y russel will come..haahaaahaaa...:P

after everyone settled down,we clearly "observe" e beautiful cake!! it was "gud-looking"..haha...a large cake base with fruit topping on top, think gt pineapple, mango, n other fruits with bright colour..yellow, red, green...colourful sia! forget to mention tt e green so sth lyk Kaya, according to lynn...haha..it was kaya lah...but not PURE!! lynn u bluff me!! aniway, i luv e cake...mouth-watering!! dunno who is e main desighner yeh?? Russel lighted up e candles, we made our bdy wishes, n then blowing off e candles..yeh!! we r getting older!! my bdy wishes..u wanna noe wat is tt?? cum i will tell u! keekee....:P

Jiawei then cut e cake,haha..we duuno y he luked so hurry leh...then they kept asking us to eat e fruit first.we then try e fruit, OMG!! u noe wat we tasted?!! WASABI!! OMG!! can you imagine e taste of mixing KAYA n WASABI tgt??!! OMG!! loz..then they still insisted tt thr is no wasabi, it was purely kaya!! YOUR BIG HEAD LAH!! loz..OMG!!

then we ate e base..wahhhh..i tell you e base tasted so nice..fresh n appetitive! it was a little biz warm....FANtastically nice!! eating halfway, they said we cum drink some water, okayz..e drink luks lyk F&N orange, so without think much, we took a bite, immediately after e liquid touched my tougue, we felt sth wrong...OMG!! wat hell was tt....OMG! OMG! they duunno mix wat things tgt n gt e weird taste!! lol....u guys ah..so CREATIVE !! then Russel start adding cream to ar cakes..haha..i n sham luked at them, suspectively..scared of anithing happened!! chee how still keep saying.."wat! u c we all doing nthing lor..relax lah..." loz...ya lor..u all doing nthing, but preparing doing sth!! haha

jas then asked all to take a photo//they all gather behind i n sham, n say "1" "2" "3" OMG! I think u should hav noe what happened next le bah!! haha..our first kiss were given to e " mouth-watering" n "full of cream,kaya n wasabi" cake!!! OMG!! my face n eyes were lyk...sia liao..then my hair becum so messy, lyk someone who jus escaped frm mental hospital!! loz...i dunno how was i luk at tt moment, onli noe tt jas was kept taking pictures n laughing hapPILY hor!! i was then standing thr to clean up my face, n eyes...n hair....out of sudden, another cake bomb came..omg...it was full of topping n wasabi!! my face tis time realy turned "green" liao lor..AHHH...my face ah...<<>>> si russel, u dun think i dunno hor, ur black shirt betrayed u lor...haha...:)
e wasabi all went into my eyes..lol..so spicy..loz...u aiming was so ACCURATE sia!! tears flowing out profusely, cuz of touch...n happy?? of course!!! haahaa......

then we paused 4 a while, everyone seemed calmed down, jiawei they all give us a bottle of water n asked us to wash hand first, we all then guai guai did it as ar hands r so dirty!! loz..it was onli after tt, we faster walked away in case they had sth to do wif e battle of water..haha..sham was standing thr n seconds later, we heard a scream haha..sham ganna soaked by tt milky water...haha...honestly, i felt so lucky tt time ,lucky i went away earlier. so i was jus standing thr n laugh loud..haahaahaa....without think anithing, suddenly, two full cups of F&N oranges plus salt flying towards me. since no time to run away, i was completely soaked out by e disg*** orange colour liquid..OMG!!! okayzz...JIA WEI, u win!! LOZ..hopefully tt is e ending..horhor...still gt ppl say nt fun enough! hor!!

then after tt, we cleaned up e place, unfortunately, i n sham all wear white shirt todae..loz...then we went to jiawei house to wash up... my shirt..loz..dyed to orange colour liao...then ah gong so nice den lent me one..keekee..damn big sia!! haha...after tt, jas, bernice, russel ch they all helped to clean up tt messy place..horhor..so great of u guys...xin ku ni men lah!!:P

after e party, jas n bernice went home, lynn n ch went to tiao qing!! haha...then we, e two victims, slowly walked to np to enjoy e air-con n walked ard for nothing lor..haha...RUSSEL xie xie ni !! HEhe...i think he was e one who left last, haha...in a word, really thx u guys 4 giving me a great bdy party!! i luv it n i really appreciated it so much!! MILLIONS THANKS TO EVERYONE!!

by e way, thx lynn,ch n jiawei for e presents, i lyk them veri much!! tis yr, my bdy of 2006, will be a eternally etched happiness in my memory!! really!! i luv u guys!!

then tml got to finish all my homework lah..now so tired..feel lyk slping now...okay..gtg liao...bye bye!!

****everyone is a blessing frm e heaven of lord****

2006-03-30T19:06:00.000+08:00

dunno why i cant paste e bdy cake my daughter gave to me de to my blog..aiyor..those who want to see, pls go visit my sweetie de blog bah (http://tomoyasu-.blogspot.com) i luv tt..it is so nice!!

to my nu er! mammy wont let you down de, i will beat him de..u wait n see hor!! haha...okayz..thanks lor..:P

2006-03-30T17:59:00.000+08:00

Wahaha....im 17 liao! im becuming 1 yr older, n my wrinkles hav kept appearing on my ungly but adorable face! haha...okay, i have a lot want to say todae! there are so mani which make me dunno start frm whr le. heheX..

before i talked abt my bdy thg, i wanna clearify..i didnt bully my daughter todae, not even a single tickle..neither my gt son, cx..haha...so daughter ya, i told you liao tt person was wilson, u dun believe me yeh?!! haha...u r so precious, how can we two bully u mah?!! right?!! haha....smile always yeh!!

kz..here is starts...firstly, i really have a great day todae. It is an memoriable n definitely unforgettable. All those simple but heart-touching wishes make me feel that im e luckiest person in the world. haha...im grateful for having such a grt bunch of friZ..it is them tt make my tis bdy so unique n exciting to me..hehex..frankly saying, i smile till my face muscle omost get crump lah..i dunno la...hhaa..:P
so here i want to type down their names n really give them sincere thanks for all they've done for me, not onli for todae, bt oso every other moment when i was encountered wif problems, unhappiness n other things.
how should i started?!! okay okay, here it goes, Mrs cry (jasmine), Hai Ting, Bernice, Edward( ex yor!), Chin Xiang (fk son yeh!) , Hui Von, Wei Qing ,Lynn, Chee How, He bIn (didi), Wilson, Chih Yong, Jia Wei, Elizabeth (daughtr), Sheryl, Lee Boon, Jasmine (4E2, sorri i dunno ur surname, keke!) Jia Hui, Migual, Kah kit, Swee kiat, Shamini, Jason Zhang， Arron Poh, Regina Chan, Fadilah , Suaiba, Martin Lim, Max, n mani mani others, pls excuse me due to my poor memory, bt everyone of u guys will hav my deepest blessing frm e heaven of God!!
n of course, i will definitely not forget my dearest bro, he gave me a sweet bdy niteZ, n his present..haha...Thank you, kor! i love all the presents u all gave to me, i will treasure them very well, as they carried our sharing memories! my favourite Marshimaro!! huhu....i luv u , my ex n my son!! haha...so lovely n adorable!! ni men zui shuai lah!! haiting n bernice, thanks to u all, e perfume candle smells so nice, n clip is cute. i love them! hui von, haha...ji xiao wo hor...okok...i luv tt beautiful notebuk which is in my favourite colour. wah...nice!! thankS! n a present which is so creative n touching___ words frm the heaven r passed to me by an angel--dearest Esther! y u everytime make me so touched one de leh?!! even rmb tt i dun like to eat proper meals...wah..so touching!! okok...i luV e present u made for me! last yr, the stones r still fresh (ly-baked) haha in my memory! heehee...thanks so much! last meh?!! okok..my mrs cry, i miss u so much!! ur words made me..hmm..really i have no words to describe le..more than jus simply touching, sincere, n exciting, thr r much much more than those! since u noe my english is poor, so pls kindly pardon me lor..ur words ah, i luv every single of them although e handwriting is a biz biz childish lah...haahaaahaaa.....:) treasuring them is no doubt, n one more thing i wanna say, u guys r GREAT! i have NO even a single regret of noeing U!! 4E1 rawkz..:)

<<>> yeh...i noe liao...so slack no more, start work hard, wasting time no more! e hardworking gal will b back soon hor!!

nono..haha..cannot say "soon", must say "NOW"!!
okay...i gtg le, thanks for everyone , i hav a amazingly surprising n happy bdy. 4E1 will continue work hard, n achieve our goals tgt!!

oo..e most important person i haven give thx to, my dearest beloved MUM!! mummy, thank u for giving birth to me,made me have a chance to take a luk at tis colourful world. thank you for spending ur time on bringing me up these yrs, im so sorry for those troubles i brought to you before. your daughter has grown up, she will not let you down in anithing u expect her to do. I really love you, and daddy so much. wish u and daddy all the best. our heart will always be as close as before though we r living apart now. I wanna to shout out, my parents Are such a pair of amazing couple!! I LOVE YOU!

>>>> God bless .....

2006-03-29T19:39:00.000+08:00

yesterday i nv update cuz too tired to type le. i had a great evening wif my bro..haha...i was really happy!! we first went to *** then he bought a pair of new shoes for me which i lyk so much!! then we had our dinner at Swensen. wahuhu....it was a really delicious, mouth-watering, n tasty meal, i will nv nv 4get abt it. we ordered a lot of things, in a total of 6....haha..2 ppl onli yeh...we were really full after e meal, even lazy to walk to e mrt liao...haha....then my bro sent me home at ard 10 plus...haha...

he went back then n slp as he had to wake up at five nex morning for working!! erm..tiring day for him la i think..aniway...i want to say that...kor..thX for everything n ur present. i had an unforgettable bdy niteZ...wo hen kai xin!! really!! thankS..:P

then todae, 29th of march, its shamani's bdy...i gave her a box of CD..luv songs lai de!! haha...nice songs la i think...hopefully she will lyk tt!!
then todae is oso e last day of my 16 yr old life....im reaching 17 liao...

count down...4 more hours to go...haha..my flowery age...how can i make tis precious flowery age more meaningful??!!! hav to think about it!

i luking forward to grow up, n at e same time, i cannot act childish la animore...haha...im nt childish lah! mus learn to be mature!! aiyor..life..my life.....my colourful life!! haha shen jing bing liao!!

i want to thank my mighty lord, father in e heaven, to give me tis chance to experience tis fantastic and colourful world. i thank you to give a pair of amazing dad n mum....i thank you for giving me a happy life, n most importantly, i thank you to let fate goes its way, and make me v made so mani endearing friZ....of all these, i wont ignore ani of tis....father, you r my lord, you are e king of king,u r worthy to be praised!! Amen!!

thX for reading...tis is my last blog of my 16 life.....

2006-03-26T18:59:00.000+08:00

well..tis is my second post todae. i jus feel lyk writing down my story..hmm...actually, i oso dunno how to describe it lah!

i wanna say is i GONNA CRAZY liao!! keep thinking of him this weekend n keep recalling e moments we spent tgt n e funs we had!! OMG...plssss!! how HOW HOWWW!! who can tell me what i should do。。。im totally "mersmerised" !! haha...then he realli doted on me loz...aiyoryor...lyk my bro...kekeX...OMG!! i think im having a crush on him bah! does tt called "lyk"?? i dunno lah..aniway he is nt my mr right which i noe clearly..haha..wait until tis crash pass over bah!!

think i gonna hav a great time tis tue wif my bro!! haha..he is so nice n caring!! OMG....give u a big hug la, ah kor!! God bless tt u wont spend so much money on tt day yor!! haha...by e way, how do u feel now?? feeling better?? mus hav more rest, okayZ?!! get well as soon as possible hor!!! missya..:P

mon gt e math test, tue gt chem mock, im so damn lazy n slack now! i gonna study now... NOW!!

haha..byebye...

7.24pm 26/03

2006-03-26T01:21:00.000+08:00

wahuhu...im feeling so happY now...haha...jus came back frm work...its 1.30 am now..haha..im nt a guai gal, so late den haven slp....erm..i've had a happY nite..my partner so damn funny!! haha..then did everything, left me gt nthing to do..haha..thank you la partner..made me feel guilty sia!! bt im still veri gud to u lor..i asked e uncle to kept sum food for u hor, in case u hungry after work, in e end nv eat..aiyor..zhen shi de...hurt my heart ya you!! haha..okayZ la..here i wan talk few words abt my tis partner..haha..he is gud luking yor...then luking at him veri comfortable one de lor...then always made me jagg dao myself...bt he doing things really fast, cuz of me todae, den dragged him became much more slower..SORRY!! my partner..haha...pei fu ur speed of doing things n one more thing, his LI QI veri strong...can carry so heavy chairs n everythING!! pei fu pei fu!! aniway...do take care lor..tml still hav to trouble u help me reture shoes!! sorri sorri!! i will compensate you nex time de...:)

then another one lor...oso luk quite nice de, bullying me till siao...stepped onto my foot...waolao...whr gt ppl lyk tt one de lor...haha...u wan play? okayZ..i play wif u ah!! haha...aniway we had aloz fun todae...he very helpful n nice de..helped us do loz of things..then he oso do damn fast de lor...always e champion hor...rash to e first, pei fu u too!! nice guy lah....be careful while u doing thigns la..later hurt urself, dun blame others yor!!

then a sad thing was tt my dear bro fell sick liao...flu?? or headache?? or fever?? bt didnt luk lyk fever...then dun wan take medicine..aiyor...okayZ la bro...mus get well as fast as possible, otherwise, working too hard will make ur situation getting worse...okayZ...mus TAKE CARE yor...tml working outside, dun force urself too much yeh..!! GOd bless u tt u will get better toniteZ...eat more veggies, drink more water, hmmm....kuai kuai hao qi lai!! best wishes to my bro lah!! :P
then bro oso mentioned abt my bdy prresent..erm..dun spend too much money yor, or my heart will pain pain de...erm...u remembered it, is e best present u give me liao...kz...cya bah！！ kambette...>>>>>keke..:)

then my another bro, dunno go whr liao....disappeared lor!! kekeX....todae no chance talked much to u lor...bt u oso mus take care ah....dun drink too much, or ur beloved body will nt function proporly de lah..take care of urself!! all e best to u TOO!!

>> u guys will nv eva be forgotten by me de!!
i will always remember tt thr r such a bunch of nice ppl who'v brought n still bring me happiness, n joy n everything!! tHANK YOU!!!

gonna slp le...tml mus study hard for my test cuming next wk....jia you jia you!!

kz..gonna slp liao...bye bye...guD niteZ...:P

2006-03-25T09:57:00.000+08:00

woke up at 6.35 tis morning, feeling lyk going to a morning exercise, so took out a new shirt to wear, dressed up in the darkness..then went out wif my MP3, n get ready to enjoy tis refreshing morning atmosphere! when i luked at e mirror in the lift, i suddenly realised one stupid thing, i wore my shirt inside out!!! OMG OMG... i mus be have get awake...WT....!! loz...stupid la me!! then hurried go home, n changed...haha..after tt, lazy to come out liao..so had a delicious breakfast then, slack slack until now..haha...

2006-03-24T21:37:00.000+08:00

todae is friday, e end of a week! todae reached home at 2.oo, haha...cuz miss my dear dear doggies mah..haha..

then during e chem period, some of us gt scolding frm teacher, the reason is because of..... erm...i dun wan to say la..i oso dunno how to say la..no mood to talk abt tt le..aniway, we can really see e truth n real characters of other ppl...erm....forget it...

Bio mdm rina taught us about genes, which made me totally lost..haha..i actually oso dunno whether i've caught e ball ant cuz everything she taught i understand, bt still hav a feeling of uncertainty!

after reaching home, haha..had a tasty lunch which i cooked for myself!! fantastic! haha...i luv it!! yeh...

okay..tt all bah....
gtg le..bye bye!

2006-03-23T19:56:00.000+08:00

todae is thur, jus finished my A math test, feeling a bit unbelievable still. i cant believe tt i could actually finished e time so smoothly n within such a short time. OMG!! amazing!! haha..cuz i dun think i gt tt capable la..haha....
aniway todae i had a happy day..heeeheee..sitting at e back of e classroom is so " shuang"!! haha...i behaving like a slaker..siao...i noe is bad lah.. im getting more n more slack which i myself start getting worried abt it. It is so stupid but i jus cant stop it!! WT****

another weekend coming..i once again wasted away my precious one wk time....im so guilty n regretted bt yet, i dunno wat to do!!

i have get lose in e dark catastrophy....

2006-03-20T17:33:00.000+08:00

wahaha....jus came back frm sku..todae skipped my higher MTL again..aiya. feeling so guilty sia..nvm la..who ask me suffered a stomachache again mah! haha...todae is a short day la..morning CME presented my cme group de video <<>> haha..so interesting...bt then paiseh lor, i sadly found that my acting skill was sooo lousy, i really cannot stand wif myself's lor...aiya...damn lousy! heheX..then mr chan said very supporting but he caught no ball in the end, den still need jas n lynn to explain...hmm...quite fun lah in a word,

then e second peroid was physic. guiltily saying tt i nv do my physic hmwk, so i hav to rash rash rash..... surprisingly, i was jus sitting under Mr chan's eyes n doing TWO pieces of work..e other one is Min thu de..then when mr chan saw it, actually his eyes were attracted by my fantastically stupid magnetism field drawing..haha..i drew totally wrong. so he kindly pointed out my errors, it was then he asked me, y i gt two workbks, then i bluffed him say both were mine..hahaha....i was nt purposely de lah..then unbelievably, he believed!!! wahaha...the handwriting of e two books were completely different lor..he standed so near, still could see wrongly??!!!
amazing!! >> haha..maybe he dun wan embarrassed me in front of e class bah!! then e wrost thing is his trust made me feel even more guilty!! loz...then CH , edward they all still sabo me...zhen shi de.....wat mah! wat friz were tt ah??!!!

okokz..haha...todae mr long nv cum to sku...cuz he was on childsick leave which i first heard was " childhood leave" !! wat is tt ah?!!! haha...then mdm tey heard, laugh until lyk siao oready..heeheeeheee....:P
after 2 peroids of math,i then sat thr happily chatting away my last two english periods..haha...needless to say, i nv finish my work lor...so now, e amt of homeworks hav becuming a hill on my table....waolao..stressful sia...haha...

then after sku, chatted wif my pretty daughter..haha..we talked here n thr...so funny hor!! nu er...mus learn to protect urself hor..mummy cannot take care of you for life-long de ah...haha...

then 2 o'clock went for choir practise preparing for tml's prefect dunno wat lah....oo...sec 4 prefects gonna retire liao..kekeX....after tt, loitering around in sku, had a afternoon tea, then went home liao...

tml no triple S,, yeh.....mus gt to do experiments for our SYSF project..hopefully we can win bah! God bless all of us!

ok la..tt all happened todae...gonna to do my works liao..bb